Happy New Years from Chicago. I'm not a big fan of New Years Eve, nor other "big" holidays; this past Christmas was the first one I experienced without a single member of my family, extended or otherwise. I wasn't really in a mood to celebrate because...
I FUCKED UP BIG TIME. Let me preface this by saying I am NOT looking for sympathy or anything; the only reason for this post is to get the ghosts of my mistakes out, kinda like therapy. But here goes: I fucking hit a parked car going 40MPH, drunk (naturally).
Besides tarnishing my stellar driving record, I destroyed my brother's VW GTI. And I spent the night in jail. And was taken to the hospital sporting leg irons and hands (which were bleeding) cuffed behind my back. Word to you, dear reader: don't ever drink and drive, but if you do, and destroy a 2 cars in spectacular fashion, don't do it in Chicago. [For the record, I passed the "ABC" test with flying colors].
I won't post the number I blew, but it was shockingly high, like "you should have alcohol poisoning" according to not one but three officers. Either the machine is broken, or I'm fucking immortal, because I didn't even feel hungover the next day (although I was still in shock). I'm still trying to get the blood out of the jeans I was wearing, but otherwise I'm remarkably intact.
I've said this many, many times, but I want to reiterate it: THANK FUCKING GOD NO ONE ELSE WAS HURT. I feel stupid/embarrassed/humiliated/ashamed. But I can deal with that. If I had injured someone else physically, I don't think I could deal. Oh, and I was told if I hadn't been wearing my seatbelt/had the benefit of an airbag, I would would have sailed through the windshield. Having 2 bruised lungs is nothing in comparison.
I'm a tough MOTHER FUCKER, and I'll get through this, and I consider myself lucky...but this is going to wipe me financially. Par for the course I suppose. It's going to be a long road to restore the trust I destroyed, and pick up the pieces, etc. It's not going to be easy, in fact it's going to be fucking awful. I can only plead patience.