That's a great question, and one I ask myself on a daily basis. The simple answer is...I have no fucking idea. But the "real answer", like so many things is so much complicated, filled with guesses, estimations and just plain ignorance (mixed with ego) on my behalf.
Anyone that has received a late night phone call from me in the last 2 years has endured me going through the motions, as I have taken to calling them. There are generally 3 steps, which I'll broadly outline:
Step 1: "OMG...I met an awesome guy!"
Step 2: "He says he's busy (or won't return calls) but he is still totally interested."
Step 3: [Me, drunk on whiskey] "he just blew me off/is no longer interested...if he ever was...etc."
The inevitable response I receive from friends (or...gawd forbid, from my Mom) is generally "don't worry! there is someone awesome out there for you!" Though appreciated, the nice sentiments ring hollow these days and nights.
Jaded? That might begin to explain the way I feel. Frustrated? You bet. Desperate? Well...you might take some side action betting on that (but i'm not willing to spill that, unless however you intend on splitting the profitable results of said side action).
UGH...I feel like such a useless/undesirable person these days. I'm barely keeping my life together, and seriously, who would want to date someone like me? I realize I'm no Channing Tatum, nor am I am David Spade. Like most people, I'm jumbled in the middle, which is totally OK. I'm not rich (duh) not poor, nor overly intelligent or stupid. I'm just average...
...but average in an odd way. Perhaps it's the heat that might prevent me from explaining it better, but I've never really fit into any specific group. This has never been a hindrance to making friends (indeed, my buddies scale the horizon of random social groups). But romantically, it just seems that whatever is specific about me keeps people from wanting to establish a true romantic connection.
Or maybe it's just me fucking up things all on my own. Either way, the lack of results has become an albatross around my neck.