Friday, August 28, 2009

GOODNIGHT

I could check and see what number post this is...something in the 550+'s...but I won't. The effort seems futile, and the random responses recently received seem also not worth the effort to respond to.

Some people don't like my prodigious use of the word FUCK. And that's fair. I understand how crass it might seem, but from my point of view, I.E. how my friends and I communicate freely amongst one another in conversation, well, that's just how it goes.

And my aim is to write how I speak. Always was and still is.

What bothers me, at this moment, is my seemingly inability to explain myself, specifically...my current situation in life. I won't even try at this point. All I have to say: I'M SICK AND FUCKING TIRED of feeling like I have to explain myself.

The original intention of creating this forum was to connect with people like myself. Which, for a period of over 2 years worked great; sadly it's outlived it's usefulness, and I refuse to bore people with random thoughts that seem at odd with the greater population of readers (of whom I really appreciate).

I...just don't know how to use this space anymore without feeling creatively constricted. So for now, and likely for the forever future, this is it.

Thank you for reading.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

That's a real shame Justin. I can happily say I've no problem with you suing any words you like- it's your space and we're privileged to have someone putting themselves out there and creating for us.

Take Care fella

M
xx

Dean Grey said...

Actually, Justin, this post made me quite sad and left me a bit teary-eyed.

Yes, I can be an emotional girl at times so that explains most of it. But in my defense, "goodbyes" are always hard to digest.

I have a different viewpoint here because I only stumbled upon your blog when I first started mine....about 8 months ago now.

In your very first posts you talked about coming out and dating and growing into "our community".

But now your out....and about, so I can see how your blog's original purpose has outgrown its usefulness for you.

I will say though, ONLY leave/end your blog for the RIGHT reasons. Feeling creatively challenged is NOT a good enough reason IMHO!!

One big observation.....

Looking over your blogposts from the very beginning and comparing them with more recent ones there is a definite change in tone.

The early posts were more heartfelt and dealt with real pain and struggles. More recent posts have veered away from that and often talk about more lighthearted subject matter (not all the time of course).

Maybe its a divine time to reconnect to that more soulful Justin from yesteryear.

Perhaps having so many friends now viewing your blog has changed the way you write because you know they're reading it. In the past you really were more anonymous and could pour it all out if you wanted.

Is this part of the problem?

This is my longest comment to you yet! Hopefully that proves how much you'll be missed!!

Say a prayer or two for guidance. Take a bit of time to reflect on things before making any final decisions.

With that said, life does goes through cycles and perhaps this cycle is ending so another will begin!

The very best of luck to you, Justin, in life and whatever you decide to do!!!

-Dean

ex-roomie said...

Aww...

Rick said...

For what it's worth, my kids really don't believe that just a scant half century ago at the usually pushing-the-limits University of Chicago, not only did we smoke in class, but there were no fags and no drugs, but nobody ever said the word "fuck". It was a girl from Bronx Science who taught us how to swear.

I, for one, will miss your blog. Whether you blog about it or not, I hope you do get the Louis Sullivan tattoo.

"william" said...

you will be missed

Ayan said...

Enjoy reading your posts, however random they might be. Would be a shame to see this blog go.

Anyways, good luck in life and everything!

Anonymous said...

I'm going to miss your blog, Justin. I only recently discovered and only commented once (this is my second time), but I really enjoyed reading your posts.

I found you and I think similarly, and it was refreshing to look at life the same way but from the point of view of someone who's more advanced in the gay coming-out continuum (I'm 19 and just recently came out), if that makes any sense.

Plus it was also very fun to hear you talk about our city, seeing as I'm new here and you know so much about its perks and pitfalls :).

I'm really hoping you reconsider, but if not, I wish you the very best in finding real love and, if by some strange coincidence of life we ever run into each other around the city (even though I won't know it's you, of course) I hope it's a pleasant encounter :D.

x's and o's,

A-Gay in Chi

B said...

Sad to see you quitting the blog. Even though I have not blogged myself in many months I still enjoy reading yours.

Talk to you soon, friend!

samuel said...

Fuckin' A, that sucks! I don't know if I've ever commented, but I've been reading your blog for a while now. I came out just a couple of years ago, and soon after I looked for blogs by gay guys and found yours. I've always enjoyed it and will miss it if for no other reason than I love the sound of gay voices.

Thomas said...

bAH!?

Aw, see ya Justin. I always liked your writing.